Goodbye 2009. Hello 2010 and beyond

2009 was a great year. Full of up's and downs. I made a lot of friends. And I lost some friends. I did a lot of things I thought I wasn't going to do and I talked to a lot of people that I thought I would never talk to. I met my best friend in the year 2009.

Alyssa... I love you so much. You're my rock. I can tell you anything. You know me more than I know myself sometimes. we're moving into our 2nd year of friendship. Everyday I appreciate you more and more. And my love for you grows by each day. each hour. each minute, each second. I love you Buttercup.

I mean, I did a lot of things in '09. Went to a lot of places.. Me and my friend Jake got close. He's a good friend of mine. He's kind of like me. Just Puerto Rican, Shorter, and Less good looking. lol. He's a dope dude. We like all the same things for the majority our personalities are just different but he's a cool ass friend. And remember that one time we got stuck downtown at like 4 am? Haha, crazy shit. "Do Something Crazy".

This girl I met. From the second I saw her I knew I had to have her. Her smile, her eyes, her everything is just amazing. I never knew I could feel this way toward one person. She was a minor part of my 2009 but, she will be a major part of my 2010.  She knows how much I'm beginning to care about her. I know the chase for her will be worth it. And I'm gonna be here for her until she tells me she doesn't want me.. Aaya, you're amazing baby. ;D

A lot of people began to dap me up and talk to me in 09. It's like the realized how dope I was. I mean people think I'm cool and shit. I'm not really all that. I mean I just do what I think is interesting. I played varsity football. Hey, we're not that great, so what. Most people can't do what we do. I blog. I mean I wasn't all that dedicated to the blog during some parts of 09 but hey, I'm back now. I like skate culture, I like New Era Fitteds. I like style. I appreciate the people I met in 09.

Like my favorite freshman Oona aka Uno. ;) She's sweeter than skittles. She's dope. I'm glad me and her are becoming friends. She's very laid back and chill. She kinda reminds me of the girl version of myself a little lol. But overall she's a great girl and I'm interested in seeing where our friendship will go.

My good friend Morgan Carter.. What can I say about her. We just started talking over the summer randomly. I think she's amazing. That goes to show that you really can't judge a book by its cover. I heard a lot of things about her. And despite all of that nonsense I love her. I'm sure she loves me too.. At least I hope she does. Me and her get along quite well because she's a real ass person. She'll tell you how it is in a second. And I'm real too. Because I do me. She's going to be one those people that are friends for a while.. maybe even a lifetime.

My BROTHERS on the football team. Yeah, brothers. I go to war with you guys and against you guys. We spend a lot of time together and hopefully our Senior season goes better than our Junior season. I want ya'll to know in 2010 I'm going to be lifting my ass off with you guys to get to a higher goal. And let's get some championship rings.

My new good friend Abbie. I love her so much. We have some good talks and she's always taking me shopping with her. She's a good contrast for me. But we connect on a different level. ily Abigail. ;)

Shoutout to all of my ex's, hook-ups, and crushes in 2009. You all taught me some things. Taught me some valuble information. And I'm grateful. Thanks for the learning experience.

My bro Chris Mitchell.. Man, you already know what it is. Goodluck in 2010.

My brother Xavier. Man, I can say I love you like a brother. And I don't need to add no homo to that man.

My good buddy Kristen aka Krissie Poo! Boy, I love her. She's amazing. I'm always happy to talk to her and I'm always willing to help her. She's amazing. And I want her to know that. We even watched pbs kids one day together... Now that's a good friend. 2010 is gonna be good to you Krissie. I love you mama.

Shoutout to the people on twitter!

I'm sorry to anyone I forgot. But I'm sure you know either I love you or I appreciate you. You are apart of who I am and have inspired what I do. And I thank you a million times.

Best Of The Year

See usually making lists of the year is difficult, but not this year. Everything was clearcut for me. Everyone who was dope was dope. And if it was whack, it got thrown away.

But this here, is the BEST OF THE YEAR List. This is compiling MY favorite things of 09.

Albums Of The Year

10.) ONLY BUILT FOR CUBAN LINX Pt. II. - Raekwon. This album was sick! I liked the overall vibe to it. It had the nuts to go up against BP3 and it gave a few good punches. Raekwon definitely knows what to do when he gets in the studio

9.) 'TIL THE CASKET DROPS - Clipse. This is one of the albums I was looking foward to ALL YEAR and it didn't disappoint me. Every song was dope. I liked "Kinda Like A Big Deal" ft. KanYe West because everyone on the track killed it. And "Popular Demand (Popeyes)" was amazing. The whole vibe to the track was dope.

8.) LOVE VS. MONEY - The-Dream. This album was great. He really did he thing. The songs were relatable and they were very good. The production was awesome. I can't pinpoint my favorite song because I listen to them all equally because they are ILL.

7.) LOSO'S WAY - Fabolous. This is probably the best album Fabolous has ever dropped. Every song was amazing. The production was great and the lyrics were out of this world. "When The Money Goes" was dope. Like I couldn't believe how great the album was when I first heard it.

6.) TRANSITION - Ryan Leslie. It's Ryan Leslie.. He's a genius. Come on..

5.) ATTENTION DEFICIT - Wale.  I expected this album to be great. After hearing all the songs that DIDN'T make it to the album. Mr. Folarin didn't disappoint. I LOVED IT.

4.) READY - Trey Songz. This is his greatest work.. Every song was amazing. I've listening to it many times and they are great songs to play. He has a great voice man...

3.) MAN ON THE MOON: The End of Day - Kid Cudi. This is like my soundtrack I could relate to what he was saying and every track was great. But "Hyyerr" ft. Chip Tha Ripper is amazing..

2.) SO FAR GONE - Drake. Technically this is an album since he released it in stores. =P

1.) THE BLUEPRINT 3 - Jay-Z. Do I really need to say anything about this album?

TREATED

Treated. from Joeseph Robinson on Vimeo.

One of Chicago's favorite sayings... "TREATED". And rapper Hollywood Holt explains what it is for those that don't know.

Cool Kids

Don Cannon + Cool Kids: Tires ft. Boldy James from Decatur Dan on Vimeo.

The video for "Tires" ft. Boldy James

*Mixtape of the Week*

Enemy Of The State: A Love Story click here to download the mixtape!

This mixtape came out on Thanksgiving and I've been listening ever since. Matter of fact I'm listening to it now. I can't single out just one song on the mixtape because they were all great. He made the format of the tape like a vinyl. You can't skip songs. It's one continuous song. It's dope. The metaphores, the incredible wordplay and the instrumentals.

I'm glad to see someone from where I'm from make it to the top. Westside Chicago. Lupe definently did his thing on this mixtape and in 2010 you can expect the album from him which I expect to be amazing. He personally told me himself early 2010. So great things are gonna be happening from this guy in the future.

THE BEST AND THE WORST.

THE BEST AND THE WORST.


THE 2000s

The Internet. 9/11. Singles. Nike Dunks. Postmodernism. The Republican Party. The Middle East. iEverything. Paris Hilton. Emo (music and state of mind). Coffee. Bright Colors. Globalization. Healthcare Corruption. American Apparel. Denim. Losing Religion. Terrorism. HBO. Shepard Fairey. Yoga. Blogging. A Bathing Ape. Jessica Alba. Christian Audigier. Marijuana. City of God. Scarves. Irony. Fairfax. Kanye West. Digital Photography. War. The ‘70s. ”Reality.” American Idol. Stupidity. Popped Collars. Wheat Paste. New Era 59/50. Myspace. Homosexuality. Zip-Up Hoodies. Corporatization. Turning 20. Going Green. Minorities. World of Warcraft. Malcolm Gladwell. Wireless. Patterns. Eminem. Obesity. Los Angeles. The Hills. Korean Yogurt. Hypebeast. Napoleon Dynamite. Kobe. Pornography. Customizing. MILFs. Radiohead. Overnight Success. Comic Con. Luxury. Trucker Caps. Air Soles. Dressing Differently. Judd Apatow. Steroids. Islam. Downloading. Skateboarding Trends. Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. Skulls. Fixed Gear. Rick Roll’d. Giant Robot. The Sopranos. Web Humor. H&M. American Guilt. Ari Gold. Survivor. Hate. Futura 2000. Sushi. Brown Hair. Track Jackets and Allover Print. White People. Cynicism. MP3s. Pixar. MMA. Kid Robot. Streetwear.

2009

Gaga. Beards. Tom’s Shoes. The End of the World. Vampires. Infidelity. Barack Obama. Jersey Shore. Facebook. Twitter. Taylor. Smartphones. 8 babies. Global Warming. Value. Kaws One. Skinny Denim. Abby Elliott is not quite the new Kristen Wiig. Yet. Medicinal Marijuana. Dancing. The End of Streetwear. Vulcanized Soles. Tattoos. Blowing Up Overnight. The Hangover. All Black Everything. Black Hair. China. Crewnecks. Kindle. Lindsay Lohan. Kid Cudi. Solids. The Democratic Party. Gourmet Hamburgers and Hot Dogs. Ignorance. Flannels. Social Networking. Aziz Ansari. Complacency. Skateboard Sport. Curb Your Enthusiasm. Graffiti. Feeling 30. User-Generated. Radiohead Copycats. Korean Tacos. Supra. CNN. Dressing like Everyone Else. Digital Videography. SXSW. Tumblr. Inglorious Basterds. Trad. Kobe vs. Lebron. Hulu. Megan Fox. Comic Movies. The Lakers. Latinos. The Yankees. Homophobia. G-Shock. The Berrics. The ‘80s. Ripping. Top Shop. The Kardashians. Cupcakes. Where the Wild Things Are. The Economy. Snuggie. Racism. Healthcare Reform. Smurf Beanies. Internet Cats. Techno. San Francisco. The Death of Print. American Downfall. Fallon is NOT the new Conan. Conan is NOT the old Conan. Modern Warfare. Swine Flu. iPhone apps. Dying Young. Branding. Lil’ Wayne. Cougars. Monetizing the Internet. Hamsters.

2010 AND BEYOND

Apple Tablet. On-Demand. Apathy. Getting Older. The Weather. Jessica Lowndes. The XX. Quality. Los Angeles Rap. Alice in Wonderland. Re-thinking the Internet. Comic Books. Joan Jett. The ‘90s. Socialism. E-commerce. Live Feed. DeLorean. Reading. Drawing. Blowing Out Overnight. Privacy. The Independent Party. Sam Rockwell. Football. I mean Soccer. Underage. Dressing Like Yourself. Thom Yorke. Pullover Hoodies. Navy Blue and Ash Heather. Homosexual Culture. Healthcare Insurance Reform. George Lopez. Education. Turning 30. Olivia Munn. Blonde Hair. The Death of Irony. Materials. Art Basel. Cupsoles. The Hundreds. The Rebirth of Streetwear. Lebron. Marijuana Legalization. The Death of Adolescence. American Pride. Kick Ass. Vegetarianism. Korean Food. Hypersexuality. Film. Dr. Dre. Baggy Denim. World of Warcraft: Cataclysm. How to Make It in America. Asians. Skateboarding Culture. Surf. Iron Man 2. Camouflage. Hair not Hats. Illustration. Classic Colors. New York.

by bobbyhundreds

To: ____

She's damn near perfect. She's dope. She's ill.

She has nothing on. But her smile makes her dressed to kill.

Her eyes tell a story I'm waiting to read.

There you go. Is this a dream

You're much to beautiful to not be with me.

Nola Daaaarling.

Nola Darling - Step To Me.

this is dope. i found out about Nola Darling on a mixtape a while ago. with a bunch of upcoming artists called "Leaders Of the New Cool" I think. And they have in rotation ever since. Like their music sounds like poetry and they're talking about real ish. I love when female emcees or "femcees" can do their thing on a track.

Look out for Nola Darling in 2010 and beyond.

Amerie ft. Fabolous - More Than Love

I really like this song. I downloaded it a couple of weeks back. The video just gives a better visual for the song and that's what videos a should be. this is ILL. I loved the instrumental for the song and Fabolous did his thing on the track.. "Trust me... I don't even trust me" ... DOPE.

And I LOVE Amerie... Like honestly.. She's amazing and gorgeous.. I love her. lol.

Something

girls are like buses. miss one in the next 15, one coming.

haha, quoting gucci mane.. it's 5:01 am. I'm up listening to So Far Gone. Man, this is like the MdB soundtrack. Every word relates to me in some way. It's crazy.

As I go through the thoughts in my mind. They come back to three things. H.E.R., Writing music, and doing something great. I feel as if I've been so inadequate. I feel like I'm missing out on something. Like I feel like I've just been coasting through life. I know I'm not the freshest, but I could be. I'm not the smartest, but I could be. I'm not the strongest, but I could be. All these shoulda, coulda, woulda are gonna become reality. I am going to change my mindset in 2010.

I need to do this for myself and become a better Marcus. Nobody likes a loser my mom always tells me.. So I guess I have to become the opposite of a loser and become a winner.

I want to be Everybody's Somebody.

and this girl on my mind is crazy.. she's so beautiful.. I swear, I can't wait to look into her eyes.. And look into her heart. And tell her I'm the one because I wanna take it slow with her and be her man for a while.. So, let me slow my roll. Slow and steady wins the race.

*Mixtape Of The Week*

Click here to download the mixtape!

I like this mixtape.. A lot. It's in heavy rotation in my playlist. My favorite tracks are "On Tha Pill", "Weekend", "The Thrill", "Miles" and "One Way". See those are a lot of favorites. I don't usually

fall in love with mixtapes.. But yo, this is ILL!! I 100% support this dude.

I've been a fan of his since that "Say Yeah" single but after that I was just like "eh, ok. here's another one of "those" rappers". But he is sick on this mixtape. And his album wasn't a dissapointment. Look out for Wiz in 2010

Boyz N The Hood ain't nothing but trouble..

this is one of my favorite pictures ever. (via Bryan Espirtu of the Legends League)

He's a real talented guy from the Toronto area.

But anyway. I'm just over here thinking random thoughts. I finally told this girl I liked how I felt. She had no clue I liked her. I'm glad she didn't.  But idk where its going with her but most likely toward the FZ.

FZ = Friend Zone.. We know how that goes.. You wanna be with someone but they just wanna be "friends" and you remain in the FZ.

It's all good though. Christmas is almost here. And I have 1 gift bought.. I need to get like 192382388394738473487 gifts.. My family is gift greedy at christmas time. :\ smh.

But it's all good because I get to see all my cousins and aunts and uncles at the same time.. I cherish moments like those because we never know when we will have them again.

Come Winter

"Strolling in the park... And watching Winter turn to Spring"

I hate winter.. The only good things about it is Christmas and my birthday.

Although I do like the styles that come out in winter. Being in Chicago I hate the cold weather. It suuuucks. I wish it was summer again. Because it was decently hot. And I miss good weather.

LEMONADE... BURR!

This beat goes so hard on this song. Like I'm not the biggest Gucci Mane fan. But I gotta give props. The beat and the hook on this is ridiculous. And I like the yellow and the big breasted women in the vid ;).


BUUUUURRRRR!

50.

I like this video.. And this song is very solid. I like the lyrics.. A lot.

Pursuit Of Happiness

Sydney

I'm soooo tired of girls addressing me as a friend. Or I'm a really good friend. Or that's all we can be. I don't need another homie. I got enough friends.

maybe I just fall too fast for the poison these women offer me..

What Women Want

I've been talking to some girls women about what they want in a man. And I've come across some interesting point of views. Such as

"someone i can just legitimately hold a conversation with. someone who has something to talk about. any guy thats loyal i guess. lol guys always front like OMG GIRLS SO CONFUSING but girls really arent all that complicated. we just want your attention."

"GIRLS ALSO WANT A GUY WHO IS STRAIGHT FORWARD. no game playing or playing hard to get, thats us ladies jobs"


"I like dude being themselves, have style, funny, can make me laugh, fun, smart, has a job, sweet, kind."

"I want a man that is honest"

"looks. im big on appearence. if he isnt fly, or gorgeous ... i wont look twice"

"to be honest what i like in a guy is a complex thing not somthing that cant be explained."


Most women want different things depending on who you talk to. But the reoccuring answers were "being themselves" and "honesty"

Some girls try to change some dudes from being themselves. and when you ask "do I look fat in this?" should we be honest? NO.

But I wanted to show the contrast in what women went for.. If all women meant what they said what they wanted they would have their ideaLL guy. But, some are confused. And I'm just here thinking.. I have most of these traits. And I could definitely fix a few.. But, most men are what women want.. They just don't mean what they say and they trick themselves out of going for the right man. They always end back up with "Mr. Yeah" or the typical douche they that always hurt them.. But after all this.. I still don't know what women want.

YM - Bedrock

Young Money... I'mma be honest.. If Drake wasn't in YM I wouldn't give this label much of a chance but eh.. I like the song.. Of course Drizzy is my favorite part. The Tyga Tyga. <--- His mixtape is NICE btw.

But it was a solid song. And it is much better than the "Every Girl" video. So yeah, enjoy!

CM, YM!

Thicki Minaj

Nicki Minaj is at the top of the game as far as female rappers go. Like her, Love her or Hate her. You're still saying her name. I didn't really like her until I was riding down to my sister's school and all she did was play Nicki Minaj. So I caught on and got hip to the shit.

She's controversial. Sexy and her a nice voice for a female rapper. Kinda like Lil Kim meets Foxy Brown which would be my ideaLL female emcee.

And her freestyle at the BET Hip-Hop Awards was FIRE.

*Mixtape of the Week*

Click here to download the mixtape!

This mixtape is ILL. My favorite tracks on it are "Fly Away" ft. Karina Pasian and "Laid Back".

I didn't know Diggy Simmons had this much talent. You wouldn't expect much from a 14 year old Richie Rich type kid. But he throws it down. And proved me wrong. I'm looking foward to his future projects.

"I'll take you to a island. He can't even buy you sand"

I love how most of these girls say they deserve the best. But yet they stay in dead end relationships. Their boyfriend doesn't care about them. But these women are lost in love. He doesn't really love you if he's playing games. If he'd rather smoke, or drink or do some other activity over spending quality time with you, you're stuuuupid for staying with this guy. This is how I see it, if you're in a relationship, Family, HER, friends.  That's how it goes. You should never ever put money over your relationship. or any other bad things. like drugs, etc, etc. If he isn't trying to please you then why are you with him. And then he cops an attitude with you and he bad mouths you. What is it gonna take for you to see that maybe he doesn't love you as much as you thought.

He takes you out.. And you end up paying. He causes drama. And you're still with him.

If your man don't treat you right, there are always other men out there who are willing to. I'll take you to an island and he can't even buy you sand..

That's all I'm gonna say..

BlackBerry Love

This is a poem.. From Toronto poet, David Delisca

All I can say is WOW.

This how I feel about my blackberry.. No lie.

MTTM Holiday 2009 Lookbook

Ladies take note.. Cop some of this shit..

1 LOVE T.O.

http://www.1loveto.com/

I'm really into this blog. Toronto has such great culture. The energy of the city seems to be going to a positive light.

I even wanna move to Toronto one day...

MdB Persona

http://personas.media.mit.edu/personasWeb.html

try it..

"Nice guys finish last, so I'm winning every race that I enter"

Can you imagine Barbie as a bad girl.. I'm tired of every girl saying they're a "Barbie" these days because of Nicki Minaj. I mean, Nicki Minaj is a baaaaad woman. But some of y'all look POPPED! For real. Sit ya ass down. Because most of you ladies ain't poppin'.

I mean only a few of you are Barbie's. But the rest of y'all are so POPPED Bratz dolls.

My Radio

haha.. the picture above always cracks me up. because i know that's how i am sometimes.. i mean, like music is my passion. i love music any kinds. i grew up on rap, rock n' roll and pop music. i love it all.

don't discriminate on your music. music makes the world go 'round.

Mixtape of The Week

http://www.zshare.net/download/58764734cb996046/

Mixtape of the week is UKNOWBIGSEAN by Big Sean. This came out a while ago. It has a lot of great songs. My favorites are Iraq, Supa Dupa, and Love Story to name a few..

The whole thing is dope.


ps. I posted this because nothing new grabbed my attention this week.

Fully Wholly: Clipse (VA) x DJ Wristpect (TO)

Fully Wholly: Clipse (VA) x DJ Wristpect (TO)

this is maaaad ill. this is from Bryan Espritu from *LL (legends league). From Toronto. I can't get over how this iLL this looks.

*Video of the Week*

Pac Div - Whiplash/Young Black Male

if you know about me. you know i love pac div. the music is bomb.

and their mixtape i listen to everyday. CHURCH LEAGUE CHAMPS

Burn After Rolling

so um.. I'm sitting here in a batman shirt and flash fitted. DC comics all around. In class today I remember talking about getting a Flash tattoo of the character on my forearm. I don't remember which class.. But I sounded dope. And then I'm gonna eventually get a sleeve.. Who knows.

As I sit here blogging I sit here listening to Wale's Attention Deficit. It's so dope. You definitely gotta cop it. And I think starting next week I'm gonna start posting my Mixtape of the Week. Something new and fresh. And some other fresh shit. haha. I need more readers and viewers and shit.

And I'm watching this Lakers game. We're down right now. But LA always finds a way to win. We got this. And I wanna go to the Bulls vs Lakers game Dec. 15th. So um.. Idk. I need $$$$$$$$$

I think I'm gonna stop chasing girls and just be friends with them.

Sidenote: Just because I give you compliments and I'm nice to you that doesn't mean I'm into you.

But there is one girl I have my eye on. We'll see what happens. But anyway. I just needed to blog to keep whoever reads this blog posted..

Oh yeah, I might be making a documentary soon. So I will keep you posted on that.

In-School

So, I'm in class. I'm supposed to be wiriting this paper but I'm not. So... I decided to blog. Life has been getting easier these days.. But I've been slacking

I've seen some really pretty girls lately and I've been getting all of their numbers.. But will I call them. "Never trust a big butt and smile" - BBD. Man that shit is so true.. Women are liers. And also deceitful. You can't trust some of them. We are all on the quest to find Bonita Applebum. Get it? quest? Bonita Applebum? But anyways...


I been listening to a lot more of Drake lately.. and that good R&B.. haha.

I listened to Blueprint 3 last night.. again.. It was dope.. "Already Home" is my shit. I just enjoy good music lately. I thiin Im gonna go home and listen to that
old school Linkin Park.

Anyways I need to type this paper...

*Marcus exits

It's been a while

Yo, I haven't blogged in a while


I really havent had time between school, football and girls. Man, i'm done with these girls for a minute. If miss right comes through aight. But for now i'm studying. Trying to get my license and focusing and rapping and this money...


Its almost 5 am.. I wanna shower for some reason... its hotter than hell in my house.


But Im getting like As, Bs, and Cs right now in school. I gotta get those Cs up.


Also I'm doing me. And it seems like the chips are falling in the right place.. Life is good. But it is going to go better.

I guess this is what they call venting...

So, I had a girlfriend. Broke up with her. Now this girl is everywhere. I'm even semi-forced to sit with her at lunch man. I swear. I'm sick of seeing her face. It's like a constant reminder of shit. She cool with people I'm cool with. And I don't like that. It annoys me. Her face is starting to annoy me. The people I'm around are starting to annoy me. I can't even talk to anyone.. Well one person I can always talk to.


She's the most amazing girl I've ever met. She's the best. I love her. Yes, I love her. and I'm not "hittin' it" or anything. She knows my secrets. I know her's. She's my best friend. I can tell her anything. It doesn't shock her..


And... I didn't even know I had a reputation at my school. Seriously. But apparently all the girls think I'm a major flirt. And I flirt with every girl. And I try to get every girls number. NOT TRUE. Honestly.. I just say things to say them. I guess I'm putting on a show for you guys. Someone needs to provide the entertainment.. So why not me? I mean, I see beauty in almost everyone because it's there. Like someone doesn't have to have the prettiest person ever for me to say "Hey beautiful". There is something I see beautiful in you and I like it.

So, don't mistake me being super nice and shit as being flirty and shit. I mean. Come on... In the words of Dom Kennedy "I WOULDN'T FUCK HALF OF YA'LL. I AIN'T WITH THAT RAPPER STUFF"


And speaking of Dom he sent me a tweet on twitter.. I asked him what does it take to be successful in the rap industry and he told me "make music that means something and work hard"

Like forreal. Why does my music have to be about being "fresh". That shit doesn't matter to me. I'm not materialistic. I'm not like these other niggas. I'm not like the other "rappers" at my school. I spit about some crazy funny shit and niggas be like "nah, nigga you can't rap. YOU SUCK" we are two different people. And majority of niggas tryna rap are thugs or thugs tryna be fresh or niggas just trying to be fresh. rapping about how fresh you are only gets you so far.

Like forreal. I'mma rap about girls and homework. because that's what I'm about man. Word..


And how come it seems that I like latina girls lately?! Like seriously.. WTF! But it's all good.. Because they look good..and we could be good together. lol.

I wrote this girl a song this week.. She said she liked it. So idk.. She's maaad cute too. Like forreal. She could be Mrs. MdB material. eh.. but we're just pals until then.. Shoutout to her.. She's mad sexy though.


And so this other girl too.. Idk. I was into her.. Then I wasn't.. And now I am.. but idk. She never responds back to texts or fbook chat so idk if she's ignoring me or she's just not into me. I can take a hint.

Also... my hand hurts thanks to football practice... my hand still looks a little swollen.. OH WELL! Football is a dangerous sport.. No pussies allowed.

So on that note.. I'm gonna end this.. It was nice to vent..


ps.. I feel so much better

Tired...

Look, I'm just tired of losing. Football games. Girls. Good people. My mind..


Football is getting so shitty.. I'm getting angry. And angry. And angry.. Honestly don't fuck with me. Marcus Browder is the far from soft. I'm no bitch. Get that shit straight now. I'm the wrong nigga to fuck with..


Girls, man.. Come to find out.. This other chick I had a mad crush on has a boyfriend.. Hmm.. How long has that been going on.. I called her perfect.. I guess I was lying.. She just proved me wrong..

Btw, I hate it when people say sorry and apologize when they say sorry. Don't apologize for rejecting me. That just makes it worse. I'm not soccer player. No suave ass latino guy. I'm me. MdB. You know me. Ugh, mad I even tripped for you.. I'm glad I didn't fall for you.. I just lightly stumbled..


I'm losing my mind because it seems like people don't know what respect means... Seriously, FUCK OFF. Ugly ass trolls annoy me. You're ugly. You're lucky you have a man.. EW.. FUCK YOU. GOODNIGHT AND GOODLUCK TO YOU.

TiRon- Throwin' My Money

I listened to his mixtape a bunch of times. I love every song. It's dope. And this video is amazing..

Drake ft. Birdman & Lil Wayne -Money To Blow

This video is dope. I think all three of them did a good job. And the video is hot overall..

My Life as of NOW.

man, a lot has happened since school started.. i have to just blog this out..


I'm so sick of my school. Like all the people in there are so disrespectful and immature. Like why are you going to be rude to a grown ass person? Like really learn how to speak to a person. Everyone is just pissing me off with the bullshit..

And why do black girls have smart mouths? like they think they demand respect. first off, if you are gonna talk to me like i'm a bitch i'm gonna talk to you like you're dumb and beneath me. Because 9 times out of 10 you are. Like you have to give respect to get it.


And people need to mature. Like seriously. We all need to grow up. And act our age.


I'm finally getting good grades. Finally. Finally. Finally. I hope I can keep it up.

I think that I'm going nuts over a freshman. She's like one of the finest girls I've ever seen. I'm gonna write a song and post it on her locker or something..


by the way to my ex iDELY!!! stop trying to make me jealous and shit. chill...


How come all the dudes I seem to hang around seem to only want to have sex with girls. I just don't see girls as sexual beings. I like them for their minds too. But it's all about the mind, body and soul. I think that my patnas have some growning up to do and maturing. Like really man, I don't see race when I date. I see people. When I see a girl I just don't think of sex. I think of the great conversation we can have and the hanging out we can do. Like forreal. I need some new people to chill with. Clear my mind. I need to hang out with older people. People my age just don't know how to act.


And I'm mad that all these girls are confusing me. There are too many of you inside of my head. I just need to breathe.. And homecoming is next week. I am most def. getting it in at the dance. Whaddup ladies?!

Um, I have a blackberry... and a broken laptop... nice.

Oh yeah, my football team has an important game tommorow...For first place in the division.. We're 4-0. We need to win this game. If we win we'll shut the doubters up and we'll be well on our way to a great season.

WE WANT BLOOD! BLOOD! BLOOD! BLOOD!

LP FOOTBALL: If you ain't apart of it, at least you got to witness... bitches..

My computer is back!

Hell yeah boy! Got my laptop back yo. It feels magical. Haha. Downloading all the music I couldn't on my mom's computer. Man, a lot of good music. Especially Dom Kennedy's new mixtape. BEST AFTER BOBBY. I love this mixtape. It's dope..

Today was a good day. My team won the game 50-12. I got a haircut. Had some good food. Chilled. Slept. And now I'm up. I'm laying down about to go back to sleep.


I just wanted to share my excitement about me having my computer back.

The Game needs players..

I'm listening to Dom Kennedy- Running Out. This song started off with a dope verse. I like it


"The game needs greatness, the marquee players" I like that. I'm on a mission to become great. I've been taking a lot of shit lately from alot of people.. Get off that. I show up to practice. I only missed 2 weeks. Chill. I was there all summer.

I got bruises and scratches everywhere.. Shit hurts.. I need a day off.

This is a dope ass song.. Dom Kennedy is the truth.. Thats I'm gonna blog about

The game needs greatness, the marquee players.. That's me. I'm on a mission. Those who hate give me motivation to continue and try harder

This goes out to you.

She said her name was heaven.
But she's hotter than hell is.
I'm helpless. Melted in her presence.
I am selfish. She can tell me anything
I'll buy it, if she's selling..
She's got me on love lockdown.. I'll be a felon
Other dudes have done you wrong. So I'm changing my ways.
I'll never be that dude. And I'll never treat you rude.
I can change the color on your mood.. ring.
Ring ring... Pick up the phone. It's love calling
It's telling you that it's me that you should be falling... for.

Forever

Lol. I used to have problems getting girls. Now I have a problem getting rid of them.. I'm going for one girl. and thats it. I have love for all these girls. But honestly. They did nothing to stand out. And that's what I was waiting on. and now I found one girl who stands out more.. And I want her. She's gonna make me work for her. And that's what I wanted. I never want anything that's easy.

"Telling every girl she's the one for me... And I ain't even planning to call..." -Drake.

Lol. Kinda describes me for the summer. and now it's fall.. I was enjoying that but now.. It's just me going for that one girl..

Doubters

I love it when guys doubt me. So when I succeed you'll look like an ass for saying dumb shit in the first place. Like today was my first day back at practice. And these dudes talking about they are gonna lay me out.. Bitch please.. Keep talking noise. You can be faster, stronger, more skilled than me.. But one thing about me is I'm not a bitch. Get knocked down 7 times.. Stand up 8. Even though we're teammates my goal is to make you eat your words.. I'm gonna flip you upside down and stand over you making you feel like shit. So um in simple words.. Fuck you.

Dark Knight by Mr. Diversity of Team DayDrEaM

Check this poem out. One of my good friends Mr. Diversity wrote this. Honestly he is one of the most talented dudes I know. Shout out to you bro.


Dark Knight

As the night comes and the moon kidnaps the sun
I am here to be your midnight protector
So do not be alarmed
The only harm you will receive is from me, mixed in with everlasting pleasure
And screams
I will become your vigilante and do your body the justice it deserves
Exceeding the speed limits of your bedroom as my drive is increased by every curve
Your body contains
My tongue will move forward up towards your navel and as place my hand over the novel beneath your breast
I will read every part of your hearts desire
I am not your ordinary hero
For I do not come to your rescue when I hear your shrieks and cries
But the opposite, you are the one coming and I am the reason you shout out loud while I’m between your thighs
I hide in the shadows ready for the male lead in your life to fail
So my skills can be put to the test to try and save you and adhere to your sexual needs
Think of me as your bodies hammer as I nail you to the bed
Gasps can only escape your mouth because of how hard I hit, I disrupt your thought of saying my name
Kisses I place on every part of your being,
Spaces on your body you didn’t even know where there I will expose
As your Dark Knight I will fight off the stress inside of you with my own weapon
Loneliness is a criminal master mind and it places a hole in you that hasn’t been filled
But I like hands on combat and I like deep penetration into the criminal mind
Justice is what I try to give
Just to show you what you need
Just in case you every feel mistreated
Just inside of you is a special treat
Just that I will be willing to eat
Just for you to witness my heroics
But know
I may not come all the time when you call because frankly I have a whole city to protect
But know that if you flash your shining light into the atmosphere
I will turn a boring dry night….into a wet, dripping, night of enjoyment
Your Dark Knight here for the flight of your imagination’s employment

Buzzin'

Man, it's like 3:52.. Jeez.. Why am I always up late for no reason? But when in doubt.. Blog. At least that's my new motto..

The title has nothing to do with anything except the fact I'm listening to the Shwayze album from last summer. This album speaks to me.. I love almost every track and that's rare for me. TO LIKE EVERY TRACK?! Congrats Shwayze. lol.

But really, I've been thinking.. Why are girls so confusing. They are like a light switch. One minute they're on and the next they're off. It really sucks. I've been so indecisive with women lately.. It's like there are too many of them.. Whoever said you can't have too many women.. LIED. I don't like hurting people, it's not in me. It's not good. I feel like I can be a better man. I need to settle down. But the girl of my dreams isn't going to be in my reality.. So it'll be pointless for me to chase her right?

But idk. I'm always writing in my blog about women. At first I couldn't get a girl to talk to me.. Now I have too many talking to me. But the only important women are family and AmB. truely. My thoughts lately have been so trill. Like really. I'm tripping out. I wish that the perfect chick would just say.. "Marcus Browder, I'm into you" Real talk. Forreal. and all those other sayings. The girl in my mind is so dope.. I don't think I'll ever be happy unless it's her in reality.. I have one idea of one girl.. She doesn't even know I'm interested.. She's so beautiful.. Like honestly. Nice hair, DOPE body, nice eyes, DOPE personality. Like really.. One of these days man.. I swear.


I think I do my best writing late at night. Like idk.. Whatever..

I'm still vibing out to Shwayze.. I wonder what happened to their show on MTV.


I kinda wish I could go back a couple of years.. Well I wish I could go back to the 4th grade and resume life from then.. Sometimes I miss the old days of elementary school. But whatever. I'll save that for another post.. Really the one thing I miss most above elementary school is Allie Ho. I gave her that nickname (Nobody take credit)

Eh, I turned off the Shwayze. I'm listening to some good ol' Rhymthm & Blues.. man, now this speaks to my soul right now.. I'm just like.. Wow.. and wish Ms. Right would come around instead Ms. Right Now and Ms. I'm here for a couple of weeks.. Smh..


I feel like if I stop looking and let her come to me.. She'll eventually come around... But.. I don't know. WHERE ARE YOU?! Oh wait, this girl I really liked went to summer camp and I haven't talked to her in a minute.. She's a really DOPE girl.. she's amazing.. I haven't wrote to her all summer... Damn, that's not good.. I lost the adress of the camp.. I'll make it up to her.


And I'm tired of listening to this LOVE SONGS.... TIME TO LISTEN TO SOME ABOVE & BEYOND SONGS. lol.

I guess the moral of this story kids is ... I got girls Buzzin' all over me.. I'm stingin' em.. But I don't wanna sting them anymore.. I want H.E.R.

UPgrade Me?

the picture above is so amazing to me. a close fried did that artwork. She's gonna be huge in the art industry. Shouts out to Alyssa AmB. ily!


now, to this post.

I've been thinking lately.. I need to upgrade myself and elevate my company and stuff.. I need more friends. I need a true group of people that I can truely call friends. I don't have that right now. I have tons of friends and stuff but i need FRIENDS. I have AmB.. and my friend Jake they are pretty dope. I had a gf.. But idk.. I have to think again about that relationship before I hop back in it.. Maybe I'm overthinking things too much


But I just want things to go my way. And lately everything has been going sideways. I'm excited to go back to school and get back on the grind.. I'm ready to be Marcus Browder the student, the football player, the good guy.. I've been an asshole to some people lately. I need to change that.. I know.. But hey, we have our moments. I think I need to be open to more things and more people. This school year I vow to be nicer and gain more friends than I started school with.


It's time for a new beginning. I gotta find THAT GIRL. You know, the one who makes you forget about everyone else...

And I gotta find great friends... or current friends who develop into great friends

It's 5:05 am.. I'm about to put my head to the pillows and dream nice dreams

STUNT ON YOU: Vaction.

Listening to this Drake song "Stunt On You". Not really relating to this post.. I just like the song. Even though it's like 1 min song... AND IT JUST ENDED! haha


But I'm in my hotel room in New Orleans. Insanely bored. It's almost 2 am. I have nothing to do.. I'm listening to my iTunes library.. I have like 3 days worth of music..


Louisana is cool state.. But at night.. ALL THESE ANIMALS COME OUT! RACCOONS, POSSUMS, ETC. Man, I'm city guy. I don't have time for all these wildlife creatures.

*and another Drake song is on. "The Winner"

"I'm IT, I'm IT, call me Mr. I-T." I love that line..

Man, I'm really bored. Maybe today will be a better day. I worked out this whole summer. I lost like 13 pounds.. I'mma gain it back this whole weekend. All this GOOD FOOD... Man.. haha

I gotta run the treadmill or something. lol.

AB_ _E _ _ AY

Like I heard this girl only liked A & F types with like 6 packs and ish..

So I actually lost like 10 pounds and still losing.. I'm just trying to do what i have to do.. But I'm not trippin.. I kinda approached her.. But I didn't really say how I felt..

I'm sorry that I'm not your type. maybe you should come out of your comfort zone for a really good dude.. me.

DREAM GIRL

Lol. The irony in the picture above and the title is "Dream Girl" and the picture above is The-Dream's girl.. But yeah.

I think I saw my dream girl today..

Like 5'5 or 5'6, Slim body (but thick with it too), Green eyes, and long hair.. Omg. And I didn't even talk to her.. Besides the fact I looked like a bum. I was with my aunt and cousin.. But she looked like how I would make a woman. I'm super mad I missed out. But if I ever see her again.. I swear..

It's kinda funny how when you never think you're going to see that one someone.. you see them and you look sorta bummy.. Ugh. FML. It's whatever. I'll see her again.

FROSTED FLAKES!!

Man, it's like 3 am... I'm up because this girl called me.. and now I'm up.. And I'm CRAVING FROSTED FLAKES!!! Like I'm about to go get me a bowl of some right now..

idk about this chick anymore.. maybe i'm overthinking things.. who knows. but whatever

I want these frosted flakes.. But I decided to blog about it instead of going to make me a bowl. HA! Frosted Flakes here I come..

I'M GOOD.

I really like that photo of me.. One of my favorite shirts.. And I'm just looking up to the sky as if there is something to look foward to..


But anyway.. There has been a lot going on with me.. I haven't got a chance to blog like I wanted to..

Football has been hectic.. I sprained my shoulder but I'm good now. I should be able to get into my pads and start hitting people.. Should be fun. But I only get to hit one day.. Because I'm not going to be able to attend practice because I'm going to New Orleans


I will try to blog from there and take a lot of pictures.. Should be a great time.


and lastly.. man, a lot of girls have been aproaching me lately.. like a lot of girls.. there has been one girl I really like.. I mean.. She could be special.. But with all the pussy cat that's in my lap right now.. I don't want to be tied down to one girl.. But I don't wanna let her go.. But all of these girls are interested.. I can't let them go.. I don't know what to do.. Because if I get with her.. There might be a chance I cheat.. And I'm not that guy. Why get into a relationship to cheat.. I should be honest with her and tell her my deal..

But she doesn't have to know all that.. Only time will tell what I will do..

SWOOSH = LIFE

I REALLY LIKE THIS PHOTO

This is like.. life. Nike has always been a staple in the shoe industry. I mean no matter what your income is or what you do or who you are.. You probably have a pair of Nikes. A pair of AF1's. Blazers. Dunks. SBs. 6.0s. Jordan's.. etc..

Nike is American Culture and this is just like woah.. SWOOSH = LIFE

Repsonce to: Girls and Games

There has been a lot of backlash over this post. I mean the girl hates me now. Over speaking my mind. She thinks I made it seem like we were going out or something. When I re-read the post.. It seemed like I was in love with someone who didn't want to love me.. I never meant for it to seem like we were together.. We were never together. But she taught me a valuble lesson.


And honestly, what guy puts hoes over bros? not saying she's a hoe.. but come on dude. The fact that you did that makes you a little bitch. And just lost my respect. I'm done with you.


But you know how I deal with drama? I DON'T. So she can be my friend or get mad at me over some little boy who just wants to hit... Hmm funny how these things have a boomerang effect.

Shoulder Injuries Suck

Man, this shoulder injury is keeping me up. I can't sleep. I can't really toss and turn because if I make a sudden movement it hurts like hell. And I have to wake up in 5 hours. Smh. Well.. I guess I'm gonna lay down. and try to sleep.


btw.. I'm over immature girls. I need a mature girl. WHERE ARE YOU!!!??

Girls & Games.

I don't get it... Girls. Why are they so confusing? Like this girl.. She's like the girl of my dreams. I really was into her. Now she's talking to one of my friends.. I don't know who to be pissed at him or her. Either way I'm done with both. Like for real. She knows how I feel about her. No matter what girl I'm with she'll always be in the back of my mind..

Funny to think that I once did a lot that I never did for this girl. I bought her flowers.. I've never bought a girl flowers in my life. Not even my mom.. Now probably she'll only be a topic when I'm pissed. Like honestly.. She thinks of me like a brother.. She says she "loves" me. But she can't choose who she likes.. She likes all these douchebag guys.. I know I'm the right guy for her.


She complains that all these dudes she's with ain't right. The guy she's talking to right now ain't right. He's the same as the last guy. He'll probably get jealous and walk out. But she's a fantastic girl. I want her in my life. But I'm not dealing with the bullshit. I'm not going to put myself through the pain of seeing her go through guy after guy. When I know I'm THE GUY FOR HER.

It's just annoying.. I mean I know it's super wrong for me to feel this way when I'm out her talking to other girls and such.. but still.. you know what I'm getting at..

...I really liked her.. She's like the girl who could've been special.

tsk tsk. oh well.

This is my blog, so i'm just venting to those who actually read it..

marcus no i love yhu alot . buht its just like a brother love . and idk its nothinq i can dhu bout it . i cant just chose who i like . im sorry .

CHURCH LEAGUE CHAMPIONS- PAC DIV

http://www.zshare.net/download/627961558a0e7e47


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That's the link for the mixtape. Honestly Pac Div is one of my favorite hip hop groups. I love the music. I love the sound. Like, Mibbs, and BeYoung did a good job on the mixtape.

and for me.. It was worth the wait.


CHURCH LEAGUE CHAMPIONS!

Church League Champions

I've been waiting for this PACIFIC DIVISION mixtape for a long time! And I still haven't heard the whole thing. Blogs say it should be coming sooner than later and I want to hear these dudes. Like, Mibbs, BeYoung. Man, I've been listening to Pac Div since the beginning of freshman year. They need to hurry with this mixtape..


But on another note.. I've been in my room writing poetry and lots of songs. This week a lot of people told me I suck... And they say they aren't hating. But maybe they are just hating a little bit. Because I could probably spit a line that Drake or Jay-Z wrote for me and they would still say I suck. Because once you get it in your mind that something or someone sucks it doesn't go away... But I'm going to prove them wrong..

But I should be going to bed soon... I might be hanging with Ella today.. or just lounging.. Who knows.. I just need some $$$$$$$..

Usually I would make this a long post.. But I'll make this short and sweet... I'm never going to let somewhere break me. EVER. End of story. You could never hurt me.

Forth Of July

Hahaha. Super eventful. I drove on the express way for the first time and it was fun.


Ate alot, had some good laughs, and saw some fireworks. It was pretty good. I would make this a long post but I do not have the energy to do that.



As my cousin STERLING is being critical of my punctuation and grammar. I will end this post.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA.

In Honor of 4th of July.

this is one of the many things I do...

and the logo on it is American M.A.D.E.

so in honor of America's Birthday.. there it is.

To: ________

Sitting here listening to songs that remind me of you.
Sitting here thinking that she should be my boo.
Thoughts of how day and night we are..
You can be the yin to my yang
For you I'm upgrading trying to change..
You're the dopest girl.. I have a sweet tooth
I guess that's why I'm attracted to you..
And I love all the things that you do..
They way you say my name. They way you cheer.
I see you reppin' like a mascot..
Look at you. Crazy Sexy Cool
You make looking beautiful so effortless..
All I wanna do is introduce you to Marcus
And not that MdB ish..
I think about you because you're so out of sight.
Me and you... yeah that sounds about right.

DRAKE- Best I Ever Had

Drake "Best I Ever Had" from kwest on Vimeo.

Been supporting this guy since the get go. I'm happy and proud to see him getting his shine on.. About time. AT-F!!!

Freestyle

This is me freestyling at like 12 am.. haha enjoy.

Gray Skies

Skies aren't gray when she is around..
Just looking at her can turn my frown upside down
She's like the old J's that I missed on sale..
She's like fine wine.. She just gets better in time..
I'm on a mission to make you mine..
You should let me hold you down
And I promise I'll never let you down
You're the starry skies above me
And the skies are never gray..
Because everytime I see you.. You make my day.

DRAKE Signs to Young Money

I was expecting this. I'm glad he did too. This is like the new Jay-Z and KanYe situation. Remember when Jay-Z was on top of the rap game and then he signed Yeezy? Thats how I feel about this. Lil' Wayne is on top of the charts and Drake is his protege or whatever and I've been following Drake since day one. I feel like WE made it. I'm truely happy for Drake and I'm proud. So that's that. I was throwing up the Roc when Yeezy made it.. Now I'm gonna be sayin' YOUNG MOOOOOLA BAAAAAAABY!!!!

Adventure..

yesterday was craaazy. i was up for 22 hours.. first i was off to summer school. that's always boring. so after that.. me, Jake, Jahi, and 'Dre went to get so grub before practice so we hit up the Potbellys in Lincoln Park.. It was super good but I'm glad I didn't have to do anything but run a lap and stretch in practice. Then after practice. A couple of guys from the team and me went to Subway to chill and eat. (I didn't eat. I was still full from Potbellys) and the guy from Subway tells us that Michael Jackson died...

Man, I was kinda sad. MJ was the greatest who ever did it. Not Elvis, not The Beatles.. MJ stands in a class alone. May he rest in peace. and he will forever Walk on the moon.

But after Subway. Jake, Cruz, Kamil and me go to the train station on our way downtown to meet up with JT. On the train we're talking so much we miss our stop so we get off and try again. After we get off we stop in Leaders 1354. Good stuff in there. I gotta go back for a shirt soon. We leave LDRS. and go to Sports Authority to look for some football stuff and wait for JT. So after being in Sports Authority for like 30 minutes and still waiting for JT we leave. Cruz goes home.. And we chill in McDonalds. We're all broke.. But Kamil gets two cheeseburgers and we chill and play some stupid game (I WON) and we leave Mickey D's. Go to Portillos and Jake eats there. And we saw some pretty hot girls in there and after about an hour JT shows up. And we go back to Sports Authority.

Then we leave back out. We head to Hooters. Me and JT eat some wings.. SHOUT OUT TO MY SERVER.. SHANNON. I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO YEARS! =)


Jake decides he wants to go see Transformers 2 so we all go along.. It took us like 30 minutes to find the theather.. Kamil almost got hit by a car. Haha.

Transformers was really good and MEGAN FOX IS MY FUTURE WIFE. She's perfect. =)

So we head to the train after the movies.. we almost missed our train because of Jake. But we made it. Then we're all waiting for our busses to go home. Me and JT end up waiting like 2 hours and end up taking a cab home.. I owe JT money.. DANG. But I got you.

That night was great. WE DID SOME CRAZY STUFF AND I LEFT SOME MINOR DETAILS OUT BUT..

LAST NIGHT WAS GOOD.