To: Her

You’ve got what I neeeeeeeed. And I won’t stop until I’m on top.

They say love is the highest form of affection. They also say I’m too young to feel love.

I cannot shake this crush. You’re on my mind too much. 

I wanna tell you how I feel, but they tell me the love I feel isn’t real.

I’m not in love it’s just the highest form of affection I feel with you. 

I want you by my side. 

And logically, I can see us kissing on the moon. Honestly, I could see us screwing on the moon. 

You are what consumes my mind.

I wish you were mine…

But I… can’t tell if I love you.

POWER.

Rumble young man, rumble

Life is a trip, so sometimes we gon’ stumble 

You gotta go through pain in order to become you

But once the world loves you, you’ll feel like there’s only one you

Now you got the power to do anything you want to

Until you ask yourself is this what it all has come to

Looking at life through sunglasses and a sunroof

Until you have the power to get out from up under you

Fuck all these labels, fuck what everybody wants from you

They trying Axl Rose you, “Welcome to The Jungle”

To be continued, we on that Norma Nella shit

We’re search for the truth even if it goes through Taylor Swift

Tell her this:

NO ONE MAN SHOULD HAVE ALL THAT POWER

Ignore.

How do you go about ignoring someone? Like you were just cool with me a couple of days ago and then you stop talking to me. Well, I'm sorry if I said anything to piss you off or something but I guess I can take the hint and leave you alone. I'm not going to be desperate and keep hitting you up. Although I keep hoping every text is you. But, it's not. It's either an e-mail or something random. I guess all our big plans aren't going to go through.

FINISHED

I think I'm done with pursuing women. I mean, I need to take a break. Focus on what I need to do. And plus, everything is becoming messy anyway. So, I'm deleting contacts, deleting pages, etc. I mean, they demand so much from me and expect too much. I'm going to just go though for a little bit just focusing.

Blues

Her eyes are blue.

Better than the sky blue.

When I'm blue, they make me feel better.

Because your eyes are apart of you.

When we talk peacefully I feel on top of the world.

We can stand on top of the world together.

Even if I'm not with you, I think about you all the time.

How it would've been if I didn't fuck up.

But from that experience it makes me want to grow up.

Makes the man in me want to show up.

Take you somewhere we can be alone listen to you speak because your voice is so beautiful.

There are so many things I want to do with you.

Hold your hand while we walk, whisper in your ear.

One day you'll be my dear.

Yeah, our future is clear.

Stranger Danger

It's funny how you can go from being complete strangers with someone to striking up small talk and then from small talk you turn into an in-depth conversation about each other's interests and things you might have in common or things you'd like to do in the future.

I mean, there was this one girl, honestly I don't even remember how we started talking but we did. Honestly, my intentions were never to try to get at her. But dang, she was hella fine inside and out. Like everything about her is just so dope. She doesn't take any bullshit and she's amazing. She likes everything I like and vice-versa. It's like she was almost made for me. From Charles Hamilton to simple things. Her smile is like watching the sunrise on the beaches of California. If I had a choice I'd choose her over the sun. She's amazing and we just bonded over simple things. She's funny too. Well at least she keeps me laughing and smiling. I can't get enough of her. Before I go to sleep she's one of my final thoughts before I rest, always leaving a goofy smile on my face. I don't know what it is. But, she's just the bee's knees.

Aston Martin Music

as I type this blog post I am listening to both versions of this song by Drake and Rick Ross. I can't get this song out of my head. Reminds me of an old track I can't remember the name of. But, I love it. 

Honestly, things have been swaying both ways lately in my life. I've just been coasting through the month of August like it's nothing. But several incidents have encouraged me to do a couple of things. 1.) Cut people out of my life. Not everyone is supposed to be your friend. If you don't have a couple of enemies along the road of success then you're doing something wrong. 2.) I need to not let things get the better of me. Honestly, I try to not see myself as better than anyone else in this world because we're all human but sometimes I think I'm just on a different level than most people. It's like I'm on an island waiting for everyone to swim over and gain this knowledge that I have attained. 3.) I have to be very secure with myself because a lot of people try to bring me down with several jokes. Honestly, I've heard everything there is to say about me. Not many words can do harm to me. But, over a period of time it gets old. Like I can only be called fat so many times or a lame so many times. Or people tell me I can't rhyme. Like come on. I have talent. You people can't deny that. 

But overall I've learned that people like me for me. And that a lot of people actually listen to what I have to say. I think my voice can travel far and help people and positively affect them. I feel like Peter Parker when he discovered he could shoot webs from his wrists. 

Labels

I think everyone is quick to put a label on things these days. And put labels on people. People but labels on this to restrict certain things. I hate being labeled things. Don't restrict me. Just because someone where's skinny jeans and retro shit doesn't make them a hipster, it just makes them a person who wears skinny jeans and retro shit. You know. People need to stop labeling shit 

Elevator Music

The title doesn't relate to this post at all. But, I've just been thinking. I'm happy these days and I guess elevator music makes me happy. Just the simple tune of something. I digress. Life has been decent for me as of late. Except my basement flooding last week and I've been sleeping on my couch ever since. Kinda sucks. But it looks like stuff will be getting back to normal soon. School is starting soon. =\ But, it's ok. I'm going to be a SEN11OR. Class of 2011 runs this. :)

Opinions

Everybody has an opinion. I love when people have opinions about me. I'm just glad people notice me. It could be worse. 

"... I love what other people think. It’s honestly an honor, even if it’s negative, for somebody to write about me or have an opinion. I love it and it’s an honor. Motherfuckers don’t have to write about you. Motherfuckers don’t have to interview you. No one has to give a fuck about you" - Brandon "Lil B" McCartney

I like my Barbies tatted up. ;)

Fly Lady Love.

So, this lady here is my homie Diana Reyes. I personally think she's amazing. Not because she's an artist or dancer just because her personality is great. And not to mention she's the Bee's Knees (Insider)

Fly Lady Di. There's a lot I can say about her. We've known each other for a short period of time but I see this friendship becoming great. I love her art. Before I even knew who she was I had her art on my wall. One of my favorite pieces. Me and Di bonded over music. She had posted something about Theophilus London, and I love Theophilus London so that's how we started talking and from that one conversation our friendship blossomed into something greater. It's like she's just from another atmosphere. She's one of the dopest people I've ever gotten a chance to speak to. She is an artist and she can dance too. I don't mean she can just move around and get dude's attention. Ol' girl has some pep in her step. =P I didn't even know this but when I was on youtube she was in Fall Out Boy's "Dance, Dance" video which is one of my favorite songs. So, you know she's really dope. I love her. I really do. I consider her a really good. I hope she's around in the future

Di, I love you.

Love Junkie

"Love Junkie feenin' for the feeling" -Donwill

So, I don't think I'm a love junkie. I really don't hop from relationship to relationship. If I am going to call a girl my girlfriend she has to be someone special, someone I know I can trust, someone I know I can be myself with. Honestly, a girl I can watch Power Rangers with. LOL. See, I'm a complex guy. It may not seem like it, but I very picky when it comes to some things women being of them. I'm not really all that shallow when it comes to picking a girlfriend I just need a couple of things. Good dresser, good kisser, good attitude, good personality.. 

But, I don't think I'm a love junkie. I don't feel the need to have a girlfriend in my life. I don't feel the need to have a girl period. Like to have sex with and shit. I'm different than most guys my age. I like to spend most of time being creative you know. I like creating things. I like reaching out to people and creating my brand.

Being a Love Junkie is way to time consuming. I don't have time to chase every girl. Impress every "cool" person. I mean if they are impressed by what I do great. =) But, I don't have time to be falling in love. I fell in love once with a girl who didn't love me back. She'd rather have someone else. But, that's beside the point. 

So far Summer of 2010 has been the Summer of MdB. 

No days off.

Netherlands

So the Netherlands are in the Semi Finals of the World Cup. I picked them from the start. I can't wait until they win it all.

Miranda Kerr. Wow, she's gorgeous and most definitely my favorite VS model

And He Gets The Girl...NOT.

Well, I know I'm not the coolest and this might sound sorta foolish because I know I'm not the smoothest. I know I'm not the cutest. I told myself I shouldn't do this. Because I'm the freshest and I'm not the popularist of students. We aren't in the same crowd I always see you with the hipsters. But I think you're the most the beautiful of all. Even if you're really small. I don't believe the lies and the basketball teams rumors. Honestly, I think you're really super. Oh you like Pac Div? I got a shirt from the show. They told me much love to you. Hey, gorgeous I've been trying to get your attention. I know I'm not your type. It's ok, I'm use to being a loser. I thought I'd try anyway

And then I walked away, thinking that she'd never talk to me. Until I felt a hand on my shoulder.

She told me. I know you're not the cutest but approaching me wasn't stupid. You were right, you're not my type. But it'll be cool if we could be friends, alright? You're a sweet guy and you're sorta cute. But you're just not my cup of tea. Sorry MdB.


Story of my life =)

Theophilus London

This guy is one of my favorite artists out. His mixtape "This Charming Mixtape" was soooo dope to me. And he's really well spoken. His style of dress is ILL and the music matches the style.

Stacey Dash.

STACEY DASH brings sexy back... from Creative Control on Vimeo.


She's the epitome of gorgeous. Well her and Paula Patton

Drake Freestyle On Tim Westwood

Drake Freestyle On Tim Westwood

Drake just murdered this. Someone bring the casket and herse

Based Quotes

I love all that. I love what other people think. It’s honestly an honor, even if it’s negative, for somebody to write about me or have an opinion. I love it and it’s an honor. Motherfuckers don’t have to write about you. Motherfuckers don’t have to interview you. No one has to give a fuck about -Lil B.

Love can only fix so much.

Yeezy

Happy Birthday to the best performer of my generation. KanYe Omari West.

Thank You.

College Dropout. Late Registration. Graduation. 808's & Heartbreaks. And the mixtapes. and the videos. And the creativity.

TML 6/15

Drake is dropping Thank Me Later next week. I've been a fan of this dude since the very beginning. I'm not a bandwagon Drake fan. I've been a fan before you could even get the right google search for this guy. I was a fan of this guy even when everyone around me told me that he sucked. This dude is in my top 5 emcees of all time. His music inspires me. His music means a lot to me. I don't just listen to his music. I hear his music.

Drake wants us to thank him later. I'm thanking him now.

Tour de Maestro

Tour De Maestro - TOKYO from levi maestro on Vimeo.

Dope

There are a lot of people who want to see you fail. There are a lot of people that would love to see me fail.

I honestly never knew I had people who disliked me until this year high school. Like what did I ever do to you to make you not like me. I'm a nice guy, I'm respectful, etc. But whatever. I can't change people's opinions of me. they will think what they want. I am dope. People are trying to kill my self-esteem... It's not going to happen.

\

Honestly, I appreciate beautiful women. Inside and out. Beauty is more than an outside appearance. Beauty is the way a woman carries herself. She has to carry herself in a respectable way and not be a hoe. You know? I like those beautiful women...

I am the bain of your existance.

"the way u act makes u unatttractive ur not big and bad no one is afraid of u u look like a lil BOY stop acting like that marcus u think u the shit but it makes people talk shit about u behind ur back and they always are i hate to say that.... ur considered a joke among the girls no one she u as hot because ur not u act to much like a child and u look like one to"

Well that's what someone said to me in a formspring post... WOW. How do I act? I act like me. This was written 6 weeks ago by the way. I act like me. I am actually quite the gentleman. IF YOU REALLY KNEW ME you'd know how I really act. In school I act different. Because it's school. The school day is waaaay too long to not act foolish and have fun with it. I have to control school and not let school control me. It's obvious you've never hung out with me. Or never seen me in a serious setting.

The girls at LP? They think I'm a joke? That's fine. LP girls are overrated and most of them are hoes. The only thing they are good for is sucking on the pickle. So I could care less. My best friend is graduating from Lp and I have a couple of good friends left at LP so I don't give a fruck. I'm going to be a senior next year. It's the LEAST of my worries to care about what a Lincoln Park student thinks about me. Marcus Browder will move on. And live life. And I can be a joke among the LP girls... Wanna know why? Because like Drake said "In a couple of years you'll be thirsty and by then I'll be looking like Tropicana Twist"

Big Sean - What U Doin? (Bullshitting)

Big Sean - What U Doin? (Bullshitting)

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Maturity

I'm trying to mature. Like I've made my mistake lately. And I don't want to make those mistake again. It's really fustrating to see that I'm disappointing a lot of people.. I just want to try my best to put a smile on everyone's faces. There are a lot of people who believe in me. I just haven't been believing in myself. There have been a lot of distractions lately. And I've fallen into the trap. Like girls will always be there and I gotta get my act together... I tried chasing this one girl... I guess she didn't want me so I wasted a long time chasing something that wasn't worth the chase. And then there's another girl that I hurt. I've tried to mend fences and makee things right. But it looks like she doesn't want to make the effort so why should I?

I just really need to put a tunnel vision up on my school work and my brand. I'm trying to build something here. And it will be built in the next 3 years. I have the outlets and I'm going to use them. See the thing about me is. When I'm dedicated and  focused on something I'm pretty damn good at it. Trust me. So I'm focused on ME. Everyone else who isn't focused on making something great or building something and staying positive can't be around me. Because for the next 5-6 months... I'm on a mission.

Video Girls..

"We like the girls who ain't on TV... Cause they got mo' ass then the models.."

I HATE Ghetto Bitches.

I seriously hate ghetto girls. They annoy me. And I hate to be so blunt with it and say I hate ghetto bitches. But, I truely do. Like honestly, why must you be so ghetto? Do you have to be that loud? Do have to take offense to everything? Must you have micro-braids in your damn head and act like it's your real hair? why? Why? WHY?!


Like everyday I go to school and there is ALWAYS an encounter with a ghetto girl. Like I don't respect these girls. They are ALWAYS poppin' off at the mouth. Like come on son. And they are always so confrontational. Sometimes you just have to let shit ride. Relax. Listen to some of your ghetto girl music and take a fucking seat somewhere.

Sorry, this has just been on my mind all day and I wanted to blog about it..

200th Post.

This is the 200th post on my blog. I think I've had my blog for a good two years now. So, I don't why it took me so long to get to 200. I've had a lot to say these last 200 posts. And there will be more to come. I love my blog. I tell people about my blog constantly. And even my family supports my blog. That's really a big honor. My family actually likes what I write. I know my aunts and my uncle supports what I do. They always talk about it.

I love it. And since I've been on this blog thing it's been great. Like I don't what it is. But I feel that I have an importance to broadcast my thoughts and have people read them and relate to them. It's great. I've never been one to crave or want attention. But it's always great to get reconition... And I thank all my readers who check up on my blog and actually like it. No hating bullshit.. I love you all. I will continue to blog

MdB

OG Maestro Knows Episode

Maestro Knows - Episode 1 (Nike Air Yeezy) from Maestro Knows on Vimeo.

The VERY FIRST Maestro Knows episode... And this is when I become inspired to become better.

To me Maestro Knows is just more than an internet show. Levi Maestro is a guy I aspire to be like one day. This dude is probably the definition of dope, ill and every synonym alike. I really do look up to him. I've even had conversations with him. He even wished me happy birthday. That meant a lot to me. It's amazing how successful this guy is. And all the people he knows. And yet he's so humble. Man, I could write all day about how I'm inspired by MK and all the dope stuff he's done. But I guess I'll stop here.

Who the hell is Flash?

Lately some people have been asking me who the hell is Flash. Or why do I have the Flash shit? Well, the Flash is a comic book character and this has just taken a life of it's own. I have multiple fitteds with the lightning bolt. Anyone who knows me knows I love DC Comics and especially the Flash. Everyone liked Batman, Superman, Spiderman. I opted out to be different. I love The Flash.

The Flash is now just more than a comic book superhero to me... This is now what I do. Who I am. What I live for.

Flash or DIE.

Choose one.

FormSpring... SMH

It amazes me that a lot of people claim to be "real" in this world but, people can't seem to get the balls and say shit to your face. Like if you want to say something negative about me.. Please say it to my face.

Like people on formspring try to "hurt" my feelings by spreading negativity.

They either want to call me fat, say I suck at football, I suck at rapping, I suck at getting girls. They want to call me ugly and unattractive. Whatever...

I just brush it all off though. I don't spread negativity to people. I try to be as positive as possible. All that anonymous hate shit is sooooo dead. Like I'm NOT really fat. I lost 30+ pounds... And people have the audacity to still call me fat... That's probably one thing that kinda pissed me off... But I think I'm gonna lose 15 more just to give you people more reasons to hate... And then ok, I don't really suck at football either. Trust me. I don't. I may not be the most talented guy out there. But, I handle my own. I'm not a bitch. If I'm out there I'm not gonna let people push me around.

And I've said this time and time again. I'm NOT really a rapper. I've never really claimed to be. And people always want to come at my head about it. They always want to make fun of me about it. People never really understand. Some people can relate to what I say. I may not be a DOPE ass emcee. But I am a dope writer. And a lot of people agree. If I really wanted to put my soul into rapping I could be a dope ass rapper.. Matter of fact... Next year, I will. Bet!

Last but not least... I have no trouble getting girls. Please, I just don't have my business all out there like everyone else. Just because I don't fuck hoes every weekend, or date all the females doesn't mean I don't get girls. I've had my fair share. And the girl I want now doesn't really know what she wants. So, I'm waiting for her to make up her mind about shit. AND I BET my girl is prettier than half the hoes these niggas who say I don't get any females fuck with. I don't fuck with ugly females. And my chick is shitting on half your roster.

If you have anything to say to me... Just say it to me. Don't be anonymous.

*PS... I'm NOT ugly... My mom says I'm handsome... lol

Al B. Back - Jungle

JUNGLE from Creative Control on Vimeo.

For those of you that don't know. This is "Brooklyn" from ATL. His real name is Albert McDaniels aka Al B. Back. He's a dope emcee and a dope poet. I really like this guy's stuff. He is pretty dope. Look out for him

DC Hat.

Wow, girl of my dreams.

Smile is so bright the sun gets jealous

I guess that's why you just brighten up my day.

Even if I see you for just 2 seconds

Those two seconds just made my day.

You're the best blunt I'll never have.

But yet I'm still lovestoned.

Lovestoned out of my mind.

I can be Cheech you can be my Chong

I really don't know why I'm comparing you to drugs.

Maybe because you're so dope.

Give me a chance... Yeah, I hope.

I like the way you look, even when you smoke.

Like woah, the way you just stand there

The way the wind blows your hair.

Damn, one chance and I swear... I'll be the best you ever had.

 If I had you I would always wear my DC hat...

Yeah, I love my hood but I kick it where you stay at.

=)

*Rough Draft.

2/22/10

Man, today school wasn't really all that exciting. All I did was think about was sleeping and a certain person... and at the end of the day I got to see this person... and even for those 20 seconds that we just talked... It was so dope. Like I appreciate the short moments...

And man, I was so tired today, maybe I'll go to sleep early. Eh, who knows.. Maybe I tommorow will be better... I hope so.

Forever's Not So Long *Short Film

Forever's Not So Long from garrettmurray on Vimeo.

"You can plan a picnic, but you can't predict the weather"

I'm actually writing this with the intention of making things change. I know if you read this you will analyze every single word and such. I really miss you. Like we used to talk everyday. But now, we're strangers. We both said we were going to be friends forever and it looks like forever wasn't forever. I know it goes two ways. But I want you to talk to me first. It seems like you don't even miss me... Like I walked past you today and you didn't even gesture to say anything to me... I miss you, the old you. I used to be able to tell you anything and now I can't even tell you "hi". I feel like you don't even want me around and it sucks. It really does

How do we go from talking everyday to this. We're lucky if we talk once a week and that's only because I text you good morning... You were my best friend and now we've gone from that to this.

I'm wondering where I went wrong. Did I do something to make you stop talking to me or what? If I did, I'm sorry and I would like to fix. I wonder where you've been because you haven't been here. How's life, how's your bf situation, how's school, how's everything..

I miss you with my whole heart. Because you are my whole heart... I could never love anyone as much as I love you. I could never tell someone else some of the things I've told you.... I just wish we could be as close as we were.... Thanks for hearing me out..

Love always,

Your dear friend Marcus...

Wale - My Sweetie

Wale - My Sweetie (directed by tabi Bonney) from tabi Bonney on Vimeo.

Wale - My Sweetie

Yeah, You

#nowplaying N.E.R.D - Yeah, You

I like the vibe of this song... I like the instrumental...

I'm just really into writing about love lately. That's something I feel... But I can't feel. You understand? There are certain individuals I love and some that I'm iffy about. Like blah.

Girls are coming and going and then they are coming back... Like wtf. Please make up your mind. Please, either you want to leave or you want to stay. There is no in between with me. If you don't want me to hit you up please know. Like you are gonna end a conversation mid-way. and you think you can call me or text me and expect me to answer immediately. Whatever. Females are sooooo dumb. But hey, I can't live without em.

Oh, well....

"You say I fucked up, but I know it ain't true. I'mma find her one day but I know it AIN'T YOU"

Update Post

Man, oh man. It's been a minute since I wrote some deep insightful things on this blog... So I might do a little something.

But so far '10 has been a little crazy. Things haven't gone as planned... They have been up and down. Women problems. School problems. etc, etc. But things are looking up for me. I hope.

I'm currently listening to some old Mickey Factz... Man, this ish goes so hard... Heaven's Fallout. This guy is ILLLLLLLL. Trust me. And btw, a lot of people have been coming to me to put them on to new music. I can't say I don't like that.. haha. I do listen to a lot music that people don't listen to. And I usually do have all the new tracks before anyone else does.... So, I guess I would be the person to ask. Get at me.

And I have to pay more attention to my blog. And I have to write something new for this talent show. Maybe a song or maybe even a poem.. Maybe a poem. So, I can show off my passionate side... I better get on that.. And I need to get on the ball for school. I mean it's easy but I'm just lazy. Maybe I need more energy or something.

I should start working out soon. Football season next year. Who knows if I'll even play or not. Whatever though.

Uhhhhh... that is all I have to say. Ha. =)

I feel you Red...

In this picture here I feel like this red M&M.

Surrounded by those different from me

Those who will never understand

People who stay around and kick out feedback

And I always entertain it as if I need that

I really don't. Your opinions don't mean much to me anymore.

To: B.K.A.D

The apple of my eye.

The girl who I love.

I promise that I will never put no one above

Yes, you're the one.

Jayden is what we would name our son.

I want to keep you around for a while

Baby, I love your smile.

You're the truth baby.

So I promise I'll be honest

In the future we'll fine like wine.

I'll never put another over mine...

You promised me forever

You promised me you'll stay

So, I'll love you forever and it'll stay that way...

the COOL bowl.

The Cool Bowl from Luc Alexandre on Vimeo.

*Mixtape of the Week*

Download the mixtape here!!

Mixtape of the week goes to Curren$y. This mixtape is called "Smokee Robinson". This is probably the illest mixtape put out in 2010. Like every song on here is very dope. But my favorites have to be "Jordan 3's", "Bout It", "Racing Stripes" ft. Dom Kennedy, and "Monte Carlo Music". Like I can listen to this everyday and just vibe off of it.

Curren$y was once signed to Young Money.. Man, if you ask me I think Lil Wayne made a mistake. This guy would've made that label the new Roc-A-Fella. For real though. He's one of the best out there right now. If you don't think so.. Just listen to the mixtape homie.

I'm looking forward to more projects from Curren$y just because of this mixtape. He's going to be big in 2010 so be on the look out for this guy from New Orleans.

Hello, 17.

Um, man. I'm turning 17 in about 2 hours.. Woah. I made it to 17. I know some dudes who didn't make it to my age. And I feel grateful. 16 was a loooooong year. Like I thought it would never end. But 16 was probably the best year of my life. I've experienced heartbreak, pain, love, lust, and everything else. It's just I gained and lost a lot during this age. Lost some friends and gained some. And I don't mind. I'm finally being reconized for me. People know my name. People know who MdB is. People know who Marcus Browder is. Like sometimes I feel humbled. Like I'm just being me. I don't who else to be and people actually like me for me.

I don't need to put on any front for anybody. I'm the same with everyone and people like me for that. I've been exposed to more shit during my 16th year of life. Man, it's been a trip. But 17 and beyond I'm gonna try to do right. I've been messing myself up and I can't have any of that anymore. Like I have to become a more mature Marcus. Like I have to make a lot of shit happen for me. and 2011 will be my greatest year. Yeah, not 2010. But, 2011.  I'm growing up... And I like it. I can't stay a kid forever.

MAESTRO KNOWS

Maestro Knows - Episode 4 (Bun B) from Maestro Knows on Vimeo.

Maestro Knows x. Bun B

Maestro Knows x Ibn Jasper

Maestro Knows - Episode 3 (Ibn Jasper) from Maestro Knows on Vimeo.

Maestro Knows episode 3. Ibn Jasper

We Major

Man, I'm just thinking. We can be doing something better with our time.. I'm living life with purpose now. I got things I wanna do. Places I wanna go. It's time to go from being local to going MAJOR.

I'm watching and listening to people. It's time to make moves. And we're about to go to work. Freshness all around. It's time to stop slackin. And get it together...


That is all.

MLK.

Today was Martin Luther King Jr day. This man was a father, preacher, doctor, and activist. If not for him I don't know where I would be. Would I have had the same oppurtunities as I do. I mean without Dr. King... Man, it's crazy. Without him I wouldn't have had thing oppurtunity to be educated among people outside of my color.

Dr. King has done so much for my life. He should be a big part of everyone's life because he along with several other activists changed America.

Thank you Dr. King.

*I'll do more about him in BHM.

T!$A Vision..

Tisavision.tv - EPISODE 1 from Creative Control on Vimeo.

This dude is BONKERS with the music/ art/ clothing. Just ask KanYe. He'll tell you.

Taz Arnold is DOPE.

Successful.... =\

As I sit here.. Listening To the unreleased version of "Successful"...

I see, how I'm growing up and how I am change. Everyone says a little change is good.. But what do they say about a lot of change? Because there is a lot of change going on around me. I'm gaining new friends and losing some old ones.. I don't want to lose the old ones but it looks like they don't want to be around anymore.

I feel like there is a certain level of expectations I have to live up to.. The pressure was getting to me.. But, I refuse to drown in the pressure. So I'm fighting it. And I'm trying to stay me... But all I want in life is....


The MONEY & CARS & CLOTHES & HOES... The end.

"Have a Coke and a smile"

"And shut the fuck up"

that is all..

COOOOOL KIIIIIDS

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Ski Beatz ft. The Cool Kids & Stalley - We Can Do It Big

My gift, My curse.

This is my gift and my curse.

I care too much. I put too much emotion in.

I heard I was clingy. I heard I IM too much.

Is it bad that I wanna feel your touch?

I guess so. I guess it's bad being passionate.

You won't even reply to back. And that's ok. I know your reasons behind it.

I know about all the other dudes. I'm not trying to sound rude.

But he don't deserve you. I do.

What does he have that I don't

I try to be cool in front of you. Like we're just homies.

Secretly, I think the thought of me and you makes you seasick.

I should be the one you pick. I'm not gonna beg you to be with me.

Beggers can't be choosers.. And for now, I'm not gonna choose you.

Crush... Crushed

They say it's better to have loved. Than to have never loved at all

But why am I talking about love, when I only liked you.

And come to think of it, I would've wifed you

But you just don't feel the science or chemistry anymore

You're the only girl I wanna be with and I will do anything to get you

I can't stand the thought of another man getting what I want

And I want you. I know it's kinda crazy going insane over a girl that I barely know about

But what I know is that you're amazing, dope, and I like your eyes.

Your brown skin, your lips. And if you don't feel the spark

Then I will re-ignite it.

I haven't felt feelings like this in a long time.

But they say love is blind but I'm blinded by the shine that you give off when you smile

Me and you is how this fairytale is gonna end.

To: ____

I wrote this love to you.. I goes like FUCK YOU

but I hope he makes you happy.

I can't be sad over you. I know you're not coming back

I fell for you. Yeah, I knew that was whack.

Sorry, but I gotta find a replacement..

I wanted our hearts to connect. But turns out they were ajacent

Seemed like you were too good to be true for God to have created

But, you're the Devil's product and your heart is jaded

*ps, if you read this.. this isn't about you. this isn't about anyone. this is just what I wish I could say,

Until You Find Yourself It's Impossible To Lose You

Listening to the soundtrack of my life that is So Far Gone. My mind is wondering in all directions. Texting girls seeing what they are up to. Looking in my mind, seeing a lot of thoughts. Looking in my heart and seeing that there is no love to give there. People physically, mentally, and emotionally. Sometimes I can't deal. And I just zone out and write. This is the case tonight. She tells me I'm amazing and still doesn't want me. Shit ain't right at home. And on top of that school sucks.

I feel like the man on the moon because no one understands where I'm coming from.

Sometimes the pressures in life are too much and you give in. I'm fighting for a lot right now. And I'm gonna keep fighting until I get what I want..

thanks for listening..

Highs & Lows

Falling too fast. Clearly rules don't apply.

I can't believe just met you.

Every minute. You're clearly on my mind

You look just like every picture I've seen

I can't help but picture us together

But I gotta slow it down. Because you need time.

And I believe that this could be something...

Pretty Brown Eyes

Damn, when I look into your eyes.. I can see that you like me

Pretty brown eyes. Colgate smile.

I don't know about them other dudes, but you drive me wild.

Smile is just the prettiest. You're the only girl I want.

Them other girls ain't got shit on you.

Fuck what they say, you still gonna be my boo.

But this ain't no Usher and Alicia shit.

Baby you shine brighter than a diamond kit.

You're the one I mention in my flows.

You're the reason why I'd give up all the hoes.

I heard you were crying a river and a ocean

Well I'm the one to never make you cry and dry all your tears

Baby, I know love is one of your fears.

But don't worry, I'm always gonna be here.