Tired...

Look, I'm just tired of losing. Football games. Girls. Good people. My mind..


Football is getting so shitty.. I'm getting angry. And angry. And angry.. Honestly don't fuck with me. Marcus Browder is the far from soft. I'm no bitch. Get that shit straight now. I'm the wrong nigga to fuck with..


Girls, man.. Come to find out.. This other chick I had a mad crush on has a boyfriend.. Hmm.. How long has that been going on.. I called her perfect.. I guess I was lying.. She just proved me wrong..

Btw, I hate it when people say sorry and apologize when they say sorry. Don't apologize for rejecting me. That just makes it worse. I'm not soccer player. No suave ass latino guy. I'm me. MdB. You know me. Ugh, mad I even tripped for you.. I'm glad I didn't fall for you.. I just lightly stumbled..


I'm losing my mind because it seems like people don't know what respect means... Seriously, FUCK OFF. Ugly ass trolls annoy me. You're ugly. You're lucky you have a man.. EW.. FUCK YOU. GOODNIGHT AND GOODLUCK TO YOU.

TiRon- Throwin' My Money

I listened to his mixtape a bunch of times. I love every song. It's dope. And this video is amazing..

Drake ft. Birdman & Lil Wayne -Money To Blow

This video is dope. I think all three of them did a good job. And the video is hot overall..

My Life as of NOW.

man, a lot has happened since school started.. i have to just blog this out..


I'm so sick of my school. Like all the people in there are so disrespectful and immature. Like why are you going to be rude to a grown ass person? Like really learn how to speak to a person. Everyone is just pissing me off with the bullshit..

And why do black girls have smart mouths? like they think they demand respect. first off, if you are gonna talk to me like i'm a bitch i'm gonna talk to you like you're dumb and beneath me. Because 9 times out of 10 you are. Like you have to give respect to get it.


And people need to mature. Like seriously. We all need to grow up. And act our age.


I'm finally getting good grades. Finally. Finally. Finally. I hope I can keep it up.

I think that I'm going nuts over a freshman. She's like one of the finest girls I've ever seen. I'm gonna write a song and post it on her locker or something..


by the way to my ex iDELY!!! stop trying to make me jealous and shit. chill...


How come all the dudes I seem to hang around seem to only want to have sex with girls. I just don't see girls as sexual beings. I like them for their minds too. But it's all about the mind, body and soul. I think that my patnas have some growning up to do and maturing. Like really man, I don't see race when I date. I see people. When I see a girl I just don't think of sex. I think of the great conversation we can have and the hanging out we can do. Like forreal. I need some new people to chill with. Clear my mind. I need to hang out with older people. People my age just don't know how to act.


And I'm mad that all these girls are confusing me. There are too many of you inside of my head. I just need to breathe.. And homecoming is next week. I am most def. getting it in at the dance. Whaddup ladies?!

Um, I have a blackberry... and a broken laptop... nice.

Oh yeah, my football team has an important game tommorow...For first place in the division.. We're 4-0. We need to win this game. If we win we'll shut the doubters up and we'll be well on our way to a great season.

WE WANT BLOOD! BLOOD! BLOOD! BLOOD!

LP FOOTBALL: If you ain't apart of it, at least you got to witness... bitches..

My computer is back!

Hell yeah boy! Got my laptop back yo. It feels magical. Haha. Downloading all the music I couldn't on my mom's computer. Man, a lot of good music. Especially Dom Kennedy's new mixtape. BEST AFTER BOBBY. I love this mixtape. It's dope..

Today was a good day. My team won the game 50-12. I got a haircut. Had some good food. Chilled. Slept. And now I'm up. I'm laying down about to go back to sleep.


I just wanted to share my excitement about me having my computer back.

The Game needs players..

I'm listening to Dom Kennedy- Running Out. This song started off with a dope verse. I like it


"The game needs greatness, the marquee players" I like that. I'm on a mission to become great. I've been taking a lot of shit lately from alot of people.. Get off that. I show up to practice. I only missed 2 weeks. Chill. I was there all summer.

I got bruises and scratches everywhere.. Shit hurts.. I need a day off.

This is a dope ass song.. Dom Kennedy is the truth.. Thats I'm gonna blog about

The game needs greatness, the marquee players.. That's me. I'm on a mission. Those who hate give me motivation to continue and try harder

This goes out to you.

She said her name was heaven.
But she's hotter than hell is.
I'm helpless. Melted in her presence.
I am selfish. She can tell me anything
I'll buy it, if she's selling..
She's got me on love lockdown.. I'll be a felon
Other dudes have done you wrong. So I'm changing my ways.
I'll never be that dude. And I'll never treat you rude.
I can change the color on your mood.. ring.
Ring ring... Pick up the phone. It's love calling
It's telling you that it's me that you should be falling... for.

Forever

Lol. I used to have problems getting girls. Now I have a problem getting rid of them.. I'm going for one girl. and thats it. I have love for all these girls. But honestly. They did nothing to stand out. And that's what I was waiting on. and now I found one girl who stands out more.. And I want her. She's gonna make me work for her. And that's what I wanted. I never want anything that's easy.

"Telling every girl she's the one for me... And I ain't even planning to call..." -Drake.

Lol. Kinda describes me for the summer. and now it's fall.. I was enjoying that but now.. It's just me going for that one girl..

Doubters

I love it when guys doubt me. So when I succeed you'll look like an ass for saying dumb shit in the first place. Like today was my first day back at practice. And these dudes talking about they are gonna lay me out.. Bitch please.. Keep talking noise. You can be faster, stronger, more skilled than me.. But one thing about me is I'm not a bitch. Get knocked down 7 times.. Stand up 8. Even though we're teammates my goal is to make you eat your words.. I'm gonna flip you upside down and stand over you making you feel like shit. So um in simple words.. Fuck you.

Dark Knight by Mr. Diversity of Team DayDrEaM

Check this poem out. One of my good friends Mr. Diversity wrote this. Honestly he is one of the most talented dudes I know. Shout out to you bro.


Dark Knight

As the night comes and the moon kidnaps the sun
I am here to be your midnight protector
So do not be alarmed
The only harm you will receive is from me, mixed in with everlasting pleasure
And screams
I will become your vigilante and do your body the justice it deserves
Exceeding the speed limits of your bedroom as my drive is increased by every curve
Your body contains
My tongue will move forward up towards your navel and as place my hand over the novel beneath your breast
I will read every part of your hearts desire
I am not your ordinary hero
For I do not come to your rescue when I hear your shrieks and cries
But the opposite, you are the one coming and I am the reason you shout out loud while I’m between your thighs
I hide in the shadows ready for the male lead in your life to fail
So my skills can be put to the test to try and save you and adhere to your sexual needs
Think of me as your bodies hammer as I nail you to the bed
Gasps can only escape your mouth because of how hard I hit, I disrupt your thought of saying my name
Kisses I place on every part of your being,
Spaces on your body you didn’t even know where there I will expose
As your Dark Knight I will fight off the stress inside of you with my own weapon
Loneliness is a criminal master mind and it places a hole in you that hasn’t been filled
But I like hands on combat and I like deep penetration into the criminal mind
Justice is what I try to give
Just to show you what you need
Just in case you every feel mistreated
Just inside of you is a special treat
Just that I will be willing to eat
Just for you to witness my heroics
But know
I may not come all the time when you call because frankly I have a whole city to protect
But know that if you flash your shining light into the atmosphere
I will turn a boring dry night….into a wet, dripping, night of enjoyment
Your Dark Knight here for the flight of your imagination’s employment

Buzzin'

Man, it's like 3:52.. Jeez.. Why am I always up late for no reason? But when in doubt.. Blog. At least that's my new motto..

The title has nothing to do with anything except the fact I'm listening to the Shwayze album from last summer. This album speaks to me.. I love almost every track and that's rare for me. TO LIKE EVERY TRACK?! Congrats Shwayze. lol.

But really, I've been thinking.. Why are girls so confusing. They are like a light switch. One minute they're on and the next they're off. It really sucks. I've been so indecisive with women lately.. It's like there are too many of them.. Whoever said you can't have too many women.. LIED. I don't like hurting people, it's not in me. It's not good. I feel like I can be a better man. I need to settle down. But the girl of my dreams isn't going to be in my reality.. So it'll be pointless for me to chase her right?

But idk. I'm always writing in my blog about women. At first I couldn't get a girl to talk to me.. Now I have too many talking to me. But the only important women are family and AmB. truely. My thoughts lately have been so trill. Like really. I'm tripping out. I wish that the perfect chick would just say.. "Marcus Browder, I'm into you" Real talk. Forreal. and all those other sayings. The girl in my mind is so dope.. I don't think I'll ever be happy unless it's her in reality.. I have one idea of one girl.. She doesn't even know I'm interested.. She's so beautiful.. Like honestly. Nice hair, DOPE body, nice eyes, DOPE personality. Like really.. One of these days man.. I swear.


I think I do my best writing late at night. Like idk.. Whatever..

I'm still vibing out to Shwayze.. I wonder what happened to their show on MTV.


I kinda wish I could go back a couple of years.. Well I wish I could go back to the 4th grade and resume life from then.. Sometimes I miss the old days of elementary school. But whatever. I'll save that for another post.. Really the one thing I miss most above elementary school is Allie Ho. I gave her that nickname (Nobody take credit)

Eh, I turned off the Shwayze. I'm listening to some good ol' Rhymthm & Blues.. man, now this speaks to my soul right now.. I'm just like.. Wow.. and wish Ms. Right would come around instead Ms. Right Now and Ms. I'm here for a couple of weeks.. Smh..


I feel like if I stop looking and let her come to me.. She'll eventually come around... But.. I don't know. WHERE ARE YOU?! Oh wait, this girl I really liked went to summer camp and I haven't talked to her in a minute.. She's a really DOPE girl.. she's amazing.. I haven't wrote to her all summer... Damn, that's not good.. I lost the adress of the camp.. I'll make it up to her.


And I'm tired of listening to this LOVE SONGS.... TIME TO LISTEN TO SOME ABOVE & BEYOND SONGS. lol.

I guess the moral of this story kids is ... I got girls Buzzin' all over me.. I'm stingin' em.. But I don't wanna sting them anymore.. I want H.E.R.

UPgrade Me?

the picture above is so amazing to me. a close fried did that artwork. She's gonna be huge in the art industry. Shouts out to Alyssa AmB. ily!


now, to this post.

I've been thinking lately.. I need to upgrade myself and elevate my company and stuff.. I need more friends. I need a true group of people that I can truely call friends. I don't have that right now. I have tons of friends and stuff but i need FRIENDS. I have AmB.. and my friend Jake they are pretty dope. I had a gf.. But idk.. I have to think again about that relationship before I hop back in it.. Maybe I'm overthinking things too much


But I just want things to go my way. And lately everything has been going sideways. I'm excited to go back to school and get back on the grind.. I'm ready to be Marcus Browder the student, the football player, the good guy.. I've been an asshole to some people lately. I need to change that.. I know.. But hey, we have our moments. I think I need to be open to more things and more people. This school year I vow to be nicer and gain more friends than I started school with.


It's time for a new beginning. I gotta find THAT GIRL. You know, the one who makes you forget about everyone else...

And I gotta find great friends... or current friends who develop into great friends

It's 5:05 am.. I'm about to put my head to the pillows and dream nice dreams

STUNT ON YOU: Vaction.

Listening to this Drake song "Stunt On You". Not really relating to this post.. I just like the song. Even though it's like 1 min song... AND IT JUST ENDED! haha


But I'm in my hotel room in New Orleans. Insanely bored. It's almost 2 am. I have nothing to do.. I'm listening to my iTunes library.. I have like 3 days worth of music..


Louisana is cool state.. But at night.. ALL THESE ANIMALS COME OUT! RACCOONS, POSSUMS, ETC. Man, I'm city guy. I don't have time for all these wildlife creatures.

*and another Drake song is on. "The Winner"

"I'm IT, I'm IT, call me Mr. I-T." I love that line..

Man, I'm really bored. Maybe today will be a better day. I worked out this whole summer. I lost like 13 pounds.. I'mma gain it back this whole weekend. All this GOOD FOOD... Man.. haha

I gotta run the treadmill or something. lol.

AB_ _E _ _ AY

Like I heard this girl only liked A & F types with like 6 packs and ish..

So I actually lost like 10 pounds and still losing.. I'm just trying to do what i have to do.. But I'm not trippin.. I kinda approached her.. But I didn't really say how I felt..

I'm sorry that I'm not your type. maybe you should come out of your comfort zone for a really good dude.. me.