Maturity

I'm trying to mature. Like I've made my mistake lately. And I don't want to make those mistake again. It's really fustrating to see that I'm disappointing a lot of people.. I just want to try my best to put a smile on everyone's faces. There are a lot of people who believe in me. I just haven't been believing in myself. There have been a lot of distractions lately. And I've fallen into the trap. Like girls will always be there and I gotta get my act together... I tried chasing this one girl... I guess she didn't want me so I wasted a long time chasing something that wasn't worth the chase. And then there's another girl that I hurt. I've tried to mend fences and makee things right. But it looks like she doesn't want to make the effort so why should I?

I just really need to put a tunnel vision up on my school work and my brand. I'm trying to build something here. And it will be built in the next 3 years. I have the outlets and I'm going to use them. See the thing about me is. When I'm dedicated and  focused on something I'm pretty damn good at it. Trust me. So I'm focused on ME. Everyone else who isn't focused on making something great or building something and staying positive can't be around me. Because for the next 5-6 months... I'm on a mission.

Video Girls..

"We like the girls who ain't on TV... Cause they got mo' ass then the models.."

I HATE Ghetto Bitches.

I seriously hate ghetto girls. They annoy me. And I hate to be so blunt with it and say I hate ghetto bitches. But, I truely do. Like honestly, why must you be so ghetto? Do you have to be that loud? Do have to take offense to everything? Must you have micro-braids in your damn head and act like it's your real hair? why? Why? WHY?!


Like everyday I go to school and there is ALWAYS an encounter with a ghetto girl. Like I don't respect these girls. They are ALWAYS poppin' off at the mouth. Like come on son. And they are always so confrontational. Sometimes you just have to let shit ride. Relax. Listen to some of your ghetto girl music and take a fucking seat somewhere.

Sorry, this has just been on my mind all day and I wanted to blog about it..

200th Post.

This is the 200th post on my blog. I think I've had my blog for a good two years now. So, I don't why it took me so long to get to 200. I've had a lot to say these last 200 posts. And there will be more to come. I love my blog. I tell people about my blog constantly. And even my family supports my blog. That's really a big honor. My family actually likes what I write. I know my aunts and my uncle supports what I do. They always talk about it.

I love it. And since I've been on this blog thing it's been great. Like I don't what it is. But I feel that I have an importance to broadcast my thoughts and have people read them and relate to them. It's great. I've never been one to crave or want attention. But it's always great to get reconition... And I thank all my readers who check up on my blog and actually like it. No hating bullshit.. I love you all. I will continue to blog

MdB

OG Maestro Knows Episode

Maestro Knows - Episode 1 (Nike Air Yeezy) from Maestro Knows on Vimeo.

The VERY FIRST Maestro Knows episode... And this is when I become inspired to become better.

To me Maestro Knows is just more than an internet show. Levi Maestro is a guy I aspire to be like one day. This dude is probably the definition of dope, ill and every synonym alike. I really do look up to him. I've even had conversations with him. He even wished me happy birthday. That meant a lot to me. It's amazing how successful this guy is. And all the people he knows. And yet he's so humble. Man, I could write all day about how I'm inspired by MK and all the dope stuff he's done. But I guess I'll stop here.

Who the hell is Flash?

Lately some people have been asking me who the hell is Flash. Or why do I have the Flash shit? Well, the Flash is a comic book character and this has just taken a life of it's own. I have multiple fitteds with the lightning bolt. Anyone who knows me knows I love DC Comics and especially the Flash. Everyone liked Batman, Superman, Spiderman. I opted out to be different. I love The Flash.

The Flash is now just more than a comic book superhero to me... This is now what I do. Who I am. What I live for.

Flash or DIE.

Choose one.

FormSpring... SMH

It amazes me that a lot of people claim to be "real" in this world but, people can't seem to get the balls and say shit to your face. Like if you want to say something negative about me.. Please say it to my face.

Like people on formspring try to "hurt" my feelings by spreading negativity.

They either want to call me fat, say I suck at football, I suck at rapping, I suck at getting girls. They want to call me ugly and unattractive. Whatever...

I just brush it all off though. I don't spread negativity to people. I try to be as positive as possible. All that anonymous hate shit is sooooo dead. Like I'm NOT really fat. I lost 30+ pounds... And people have the audacity to still call me fat... That's probably one thing that kinda pissed me off... But I think I'm gonna lose 15 more just to give you people more reasons to hate... And then ok, I don't really suck at football either. Trust me. I don't. I may not be the most talented guy out there. But, I handle my own. I'm not a bitch. If I'm out there I'm not gonna let people push me around.

And I've said this time and time again. I'm NOT really a rapper. I've never really claimed to be. And people always want to come at my head about it. They always want to make fun of me about it. People never really understand. Some people can relate to what I say. I may not be a DOPE ass emcee. But I am a dope writer. And a lot of people agree. If I really wanted to put my soul into rapping I could be a dope ass rapper.. Matter of fact... Next year, I will. Bet!

Last but not least... I have no trouble getting girls. Please, I just don't have my business all out there like everyone else. Just because I don't fuck hoes every weekend, or date all the females doesn't mean I don't get girls. I've had my fair share. And the girl I want now doesn't really know what she wants. So, I'm waiting for her to make up her mind about shit. AND I BET my girl is prettier than half the hoes these niggas who say I don't get any females fuck with. I don't fuck with ugly females. And my chick is shitting on half your roster.

If you have anything to say to me... Just say it to me. Don't be anonymous.

*PS... I'm NOT ugly... My mom says I'm handsome... lol

Al B. Back - Jungle

JUNGLE from Creative Control on Vimeo.

For those of you that don't know. This is "Brooklyn" from ATL. His real name is Albert McDaniels aka Al B. Back. He's a dope emcee and a dope poet. I really like this guy's stuff. He is pretty dope. Look out for him

DC Hat.

Wow, girl of my dreams.

Smile is so bright the sun gets jealous

I guess that's why you just brighten up my day.

Even if I see you for just 2 seconds

Those two seconds just made my day.

You're the best blunt I'll never have.

But yet I'm still lovestoned.

Lovestoned out of my mind.

I can be Cheech you can be my Chong

I really don't know why I'm comparing you to drugs.

Maybe because you're so dope.

Give me a chance... Yeah, I hope.

I like the way you look, even when you smoke.

Like woah, the way you just stand there

The way the wind blows your hair.

Damn, one chance and I swear... I'll be the best you ever had.

 If I had you I would always wear my DC hat...

Yeah, I love my hood but I kick it where you stay at.

=)

*Rough Draft.

2/22/10

Man, today school wasn't really all that exciting. All I did was think about was sleeping and a certain person... and at the end of the day I got to see this person... and even for those 20 seconds that we just talked... It was so dope. Like I appreciate the short moments...

And man, I was so tired today, maybe I'll go to sleep early. Eh, who knows.. Maybe I tommorow will be better... I hope so.

Forever's Not So Long *Short Film

Forever's Not So Long from garrettmurray on Vimeo.

"You can plan a picnic, but you can't predict the weather"

I'm actually writing this with the intention of making things change. I know if you read this you will analyze every single word and such. I really miss you. Like we used to talk everyday. But now, we're strangers. We both said we were going to be friends forever and it looks like forever wasn't forever. I know it goes two ways. But I want you to talk to me first. It seems like you don't even miss me... Like I walked past you today and you didn't even gesture to say anything to me... I miss you, the old you. I used to be able to tell you anything and now I can't even tell you "hi". I feel like you don't even want me around and it sucks. It really does

How do we go from talking everyday to this. We're lucky if we talk once a week and that's only because I text you good morning... You were my best friend and now we've gone from that to this.

I'm wondering where I went wrong. Did I do something to make you stop talking to me or what? If I did, I'm sorry and I would like to fix. I wonder where you've been because you haven't been here. How's life, how's your bf situation, how's school, how's everything..

I miss you with my whole heart. Because you are my whole heart... I could never love anyone as much as I love you. I could never tell someone else some of the things I've told you.... I just wish we could be as close as we were.... Thanks for hearing me out..

Love always,

Your dear friend Marcus...

Wale - My Sweetie

Wale - My Sweetie (directed by tabi Bonney) from tabi Bonney on Vimeo.

Wale - My Sweetie

Yeah, You

#nowplaying N.E.R.D - Yeah, You

I like the vibe of this song... I like the instrumental...

I'm just really into writing about love lately. That's something I feel... But I can't feel. You understand? There are certain individuals I love and some that I'm iffy about. Like blah.

Girls are coming and going and then they are coming back... Like wtf. Please make up your mind. Please, either you want to leave or you want to stay. There is no in between with me. If you don't want me to hit you up please know. Like you are gonna end a conversation mid-way. and you think you can call me or text me and expect me to answer immediately. Whatever. Females are sooooo dumb. But hey, I can't live without em.

Oh, well....

"You say I fucked up, but I know it ain't true. I'mma find her one day but I know it AIN'T YOU"